.:. mommy dearest? .:.

Day 32 of Mommy-hood

So, this is my first post ever since we became parents, and I became a walking human cow.

Baby Mik is finally here and he turned one month old two days ago! Happy one month, my boy! :)

These days, my days are basically scheduled around his sleeping time. Like in the morning, after his morning feed, he'll snooze till like 9am or so, and that's when I catch up on my precious sleep. My God, I have never been so sleep-deprived in my entire life! LOL. You know how I used to be able to function on a standardised 6-hour sleep pattern? Now, I'm living day-by-day on a 3-hourly-wake-up-and-feed/change-the-baby-for-like-another-hour-before-I-hit-the-snooze-button-again-only-to-be-woken-up-in-the-next-two-hours schedule. But I'm not complaining. I've been surviving thus far, alhamdulillah.

I've learnt that mommies are extremely powerful. They have the power of the BOOBs. I've been breastfeeding since Day 1, and thankfully, the milk supply's been increasing. I've been asking around on the kind of food that increases one's supply, and well, apparently, boiled green bean soup (without the coconut milk; not the dessert kind) works wonders for one's milk supply. It's like magic; like you drinik it now, and in about 4 hours or so, your milk supply's like woah! alike so much, to the extent you leak.

That's about the only thing that I hate about breastfeeding - the leaking. It's like super weird. Like you go to sleep all fine and dandy, and then, you wake up wet in the chest area. Like really wet, like you peed on yourself but it's on your chest! What the heck right?! :) Other than that, I have no qualms about breastfeeding. I'm in love with the magic boobies now, what with the increase in size and plus, they really ARE magic. I can go out with Mik Mik all alone and when he fusses, I just nip him my boob, and woah, lo and behold, all is calm again. Haha.

But well, since he's a growing boy, he drinks a lot. And I mean, A LOT! So, I'm doing both - breastfeeding AND giving him formula milk. But you know what they say, about how breastmilk is still the best. And it's so true, cos at the end of the day, even after he's drunk a whole bottle of formula milk, Mik Mik will still go searching for my magic boobies. They always lull him to sleep, no matter what. Amazing.

He's getting so big and chubby now. And I cannot tahan his cheeks. So bloody cute! So geramz. I feel like biting them all day. Lol.

Ok, I've never been the motherly, maternal kind. I still don't think I am. Haha. But well, I;m slowly learning the ropes. One thing's for sure though, when it comes to your kid, you'll just know. Like you'll just know how to carry him, or soothe him, or feed him, bathe him, change him. And the list goes on.

Just trust yourself and you'll be fine. :)

.:. today, i don't feel like doing anything .:.

so, just like bruno mars has cleverly scripted in his lastest hit, today (more like everyday since the 3rd trimester began), i don't feel like doing anything.

"Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything
I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed

Don't Feel Like Pickin' Up My Phone

So Leave A Message At The Tone

'Cause Today I swear I'm Not Doin' Anythin'"

seriously. o_0

i find it rather disturbing actually, cos i've always been the on-the-ball kind of person, so when i'm so exhausted and lethargic, i find it troubling. and a tad bit annoying, actually. lol.

i have decided to give up on counting down to week 36. cos i find it rather depressing. because when i count down, i find myself looking forward to after the baby is born, to when i can tote him around, and to a time when i can wear my heels. and then, when i consciously count down, it seems like time is standing still, and the weeks are longer.

so, to heck with counting down. i shall just look forward to my b-weekly gynae appointments. heh. :)

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baby shower for Baby M?

ermmm. sorry to be a party pooper, but i only like celebratory occasions when they're not for me. haha. like a couple of the uni peeps are thinking of doing up like a baby shower of sorts, but well, i'm too lazy to enjoy such things. i don't mind going if it's for someone else, but if it's for me, tak yah lah. i'd rather do a 'baby shower' after baby M's born, like when he's 3 months old or sth, and i can tote him around. :) that idea, i like.

so for now, should anyone wish to spend moolah on baby M, kindly get him a diaper cake(s) - with clothes for 3 months old and above, and nothing in blue. bright colours are greatly welcomed. thank you! :) just like how his mama loves diaper cakes, i'm sure he'll grow to love them too. lol.

i do plan to do a big do-daa for him when he's about 3 months old or something. a kind of introductory hello-welcome-to-this-world kinda thing. please don't get this confused with the cukur rambut. the cukur rambut will definitely happen, but think we might just invite family and close friends, cos that would already sum up to like 300 people? hahhha. yes, we have a LOT of family. lol.

so, look forward to this big doo-daa thingy. it'll most prolly be slated for a time before he turns 6 months old, but when he's already uber cute with baby fats, and his mama can get back to her hot heels and look more like a MILF. so, yar. look out for that. no concrete details yet, but you get the drift.

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Dear Baby M,

i don't know why, but you love placing your butt cheeks in the middle of my belly. makes me laugh thinking about it, cos well, shows you got a sense of humour. and hey, you're not shy. if my belly was transparent. it kinda feels like you're showing off them cute cheeks for the world to see. hahhaha. keep up the humour and the somersaults in there - i look forward to them every day.

xoxo,

your Mama

.:. i know that we've tried, but this is the last goodbye .:.

The things that I cannot wait to do after Baby M arrives!

1) oh God. Wear them heels!Oh my dear God. Only you know how much I miss my gorgeous heels. I look at them hanging on the damn shoe rack and they're collecting dust!! Nooooo. I think they feel sad, cos they've been neglected. Boo.

That's it.

First thing on my list of what to buy after delivery is a new pair of pretty heels. *drools*I don't even care about losing weight sia. I just wanna fit my feet into a pair of gorgeous sexy heels and I'm all good to go. Wahhhhh. Cannot wait.

2) Highlight me tresses! Some hair pampering is much much needed. And I cannot wait to get into that salon's chair after the 1 month confinement and get my tresses treated to gorgeous honey highlights. Baby, be prepared to take care of the baby for a maximum of 2 hours while I get back my old hair!!

3) Losing the pregnancy weight? Hmm.Ok, this one, I'm not gonna do immediately. Cos that's like crazy. Plus, I didn't gain much weight in other parts except for the tummy. And Erm, I like the very well endowed assets on my chest.

So, Yar.
This is last on my priority list.
Plus, the husband's not pressuring me to lose weight, cos dier pun dah PBG! Hahaha.

That's about it actually.
And travel.
But well, that's something we can do when the baby's slightly pass the 3 month mark.

And we can do that as a family. :) which I am very much looking forward to. I figured i'd better store this list somewhere before I get all forgetful. Now back to watching my tummy groove to the music I'm listening to. Baby M's having a ball of a time doing flips and somersaults. Haha.

.:. rolling in the deep .:.

i find great comfort in listening to your snores at night or whenever i can't sleep. it's always been that way, from the time before we weere married, when we were still courting and till now. and i hope it remains that way. whether it's in the comfort of our own bed, or even when we're abroad, and i wake in the middle of the night. i seek comfort in knowing that you're next to me, and listening to your rhythmic breathing/snores lull me back to slumberland. :)

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hurdles in Baby M's world: what's that?!

there is finally a small (read: BIG! HUGE!) flicker of hope during this very trying last trimester - my amniotic fluid level has decreased to being normal! yayness. was so so soooo relieved when i heard that from the sonographer when we did the fetal scan. Baby M's doing well, somersaulting and doing yoga in my belly. he refuses to show us his full face - maybe he's trying to keep us in suspense and surprise us upon delivery. wahhh.

our gynae seems confident that all will be ok, in due time. the baby will definitely be born a premmie, though a late one. but she's trying to minimise his chances of having to stay in the neonatal unit after delivery. hence, she's holding me on to the meds till 34/35 weeks.

my target is to hold on till at least 36 weeks. somehow, the date 20th August seems to ring a bell to me, though i cannot, for the life of me, fathom its significance. i honestly don't think it's anyone's birthday or a special date of any kind. so, i believe that it might be a sign from the One above that baby M might make his big entrance then. that'll be during my 36th week, and i'd be 9 months by then, so please do. :)

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temporary SAHM vs Nine West heels in the corporate world

i gotta submit my application for unpaid leave soon if i want to take any after Baby M's delivery. i was initially planning to take at least 2 extra months till Feb 2012, till he turns 6 months, before the whole she-bang with bed rest and all the ning-nongs. i was so sure of this. and then, the whole bed rest episode happened, and i was forced to take early absence from work, and by ttime my maternity leave ends in Dec 2011, i would have been away from work for a period of like 6 months.

wah. i know this sounds horrendous, but i'm such a workaholic that i actually feel bad for being away that long. sheesh.

plus, with the notion that if i take unpaid leave, i might not have a job to go back to, well, duh, now you get why i'm actually contemplating and rethinking my decision. it doesn't help that my emplacement is due in Jan 2012, and well, if i take unpaid and it's approved, i'll be away till like mid Feb 2012, which means that i might miss my emplacement and thus, might not be emplaced?

i was talking to the man about this, and i need him to be on the same page as me. that should the possibility of me being unemployed occur, he'll be alright with it. we both agreed that well, who ever said having a kid was easy, and that parenthood was gonna be a piece of cake. but if me taking time off from work to make sure that our kid's all well and fine for the first 6 months of his life, then so be it. we'll risk the possibility of me being jobless because of this.

so, it's settled then. unpaid till Feb 2012, and keeping my fingers crossed.

*praying hard*

.:. your daddy must have been a drug dealer .:.

this man here loves watching chinese films. especially donnie yen ones. i, on the other hand, just don't get it. -_-

each night, when i can't sleep and am lying in bed, i google or think about the food that i'd like to have for lunch the next day. like today, i cooked chicken soup. very the yum yum. and tomorrow, i'm thinking of making beef spaghetti. i've tried cooking chicken spaghetti, but God, i still love the old traditional beef bolognaise type. i lovvvve. :)

these few days, i've been trying to perfect or twig or discover my grandma's age-old recipe for banana fritters (jemput-jemput). well, i could ask her, but that's a bit difficult, seeing as how she can barely talk after her stroke late last year. so, i'm trying to twig it and figure it out. so far, i failed my first attempt - too little sugar. and the flour wasn't cooked enough. hmmm. i shall ask the man to get me some bananas and try again in like two weeks or so.

since the bed rest, i've been cooking a lot. trying new easy to cook recipes. so far, so good. i shall maybe attempt mee goreng end of this week, no?. lol. we shall see.

i'll be reaching my 7th month this friday, and well, everything's almost ready for baby M. we've gotten the bottles, loads of clothes and bibs, the swaddles, the changing mat, the wet wipes, the toys, the breast pump, the bottel cleaner, the diaper/changing/cleaning organiser. now, we're just left with the milk and the powder. done. not bad. we're very prepared (logistically) for the arrival of this tiny little being, and i cannot wait to hold his squirming self in my arms. the SIL and the husband were talking, and the man asked her if my belly was as big as my elder SIL before she popped yesterday. and my SIL thinks that mine and kak ila's was as big. like i look like i'm 8 months preggers. wah lau. really? i don't mind a big baby, and i pray that he'll be well and fully developed before he decides to make his grand entrance.

online shopping has gotten me all excited these few weeks, and i now await my three new purchases. i shall post pics of them up when they arrive. cannot wait!

on another note, i shall one day post the baby's crib and how it looks like. one day, some day. lol.
just don't hold your breath k. :0)